Put a match to my core.

Each moment of a happy lover's hour is worth an age of dull and common life.
-Aphra Behn

A kiss is a lovely trick, designed by nature, to stop words when speech becomes superfluous.
-Ingrid Bergmen

Come live with me and be my love, and we will some new pleasures prove, of golden sands, and crystal beaches, with silken lines and silver hooks...
-John Dunne

Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it.
-Thomas Fuller

Your words are my food, your breath my wine. You are everything to me.
-Sarah Bernhardt

Make me immortal with a kiss.
-Christopher Marlowe

Love is the enchanted dawn of every heart.
-Alphonse Marie de la Martine

Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies.
-Aristotle

Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction.
-Antoine de Saint-Exupery

Love is the master key that opens the gates of happiness.
-Oliver Wendell Holmes

Love distills desire upon the eyes, love brings bewitching grace into the heart.
-Euripides

There is no remedy for love but to love more.
-Henry David Thoreau

The soul that can speak with its eyes can also kiss with a gaze.
-Unknown

To get the full value of joy you must have someone to divide it with.
-Mark Twain

The only true gift is a portion of yourself.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

My heart is ever at your service.
-William Shakespeare

Love doesn't make the world go round, love is what makes the ride worthwhile.
-Elizabeth Browning

To love is to receive a glimpse of heaven.
-Karen Sunde

If I know what love is, it is because of you.
-Herman Hesse

Love is something eternal; the aspect may change, but not the essense.
-Vincent van Gogh

If I had a flower for every time I thought of you, I could walk in my garden forever.
-Alfred Lord Tennyson

In my wildest dreams, you always play the hero. In my darkest hour of night, you rescue me, you save my life.
-Bliss and Cerney

The more I give to thee, the more I have, for both are infinite.
-William Shakespeare

Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.
-Robert Heinlein

The most powerful symptom of love is a tenderness which becomes at times almost insupportable.
-Victor Hugo

I wished for nothing beyond her smile, and to walk with her thus, hand in hand, along a sun-warmed, flower-bordered path.
-Andre Gide

What I feel for you seems less of earth and more of a cloudless heaven.
-Victor Hugo

My night has become a sunny dawn because of you.
-Ibn Abbad

When you came, you were like red wine and honey, and the taste of you burnt my mouth with its sweetness.
-Amy Lowell

You're nothing short of my everything.
-Ralph Block

Love is but the discovery of ourselves in others, and the delight in the recognition.
-Alexander Smith

All love is sweet, given or returned.
-Percy Bysshe Shelley

How delicious is the winning of a kiss at love's beginning.
-Thomas Campbell

Love is friendship set on fire.
-Jeremy Taylor

I love you, not only for what you are, But for what I am when I am with you.
-Roy Croft

The most eloquent silence; that of two mouths meeting in a kiss.
-Unknown

Love is the irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.
-Mark Twain

So dear I love him that with him, All deaths I could endure. Without him, live no life.
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet

The most precious possession that ever comes to a man in this world is a woman's heart.
-Josiah G. Holland

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.
-Sam Keen

Come, let us make love deathless.
-Herbert Trench

Two souls with but a single thought, two hearts that beat as one.
-John Keats

Love is the emblem of eternity: it confounds all notion of time: effaces all memory of a beginning, all fear of an end.
-Germaine De Stael

I love thee to the depth and breadth and height my soul can reach...
-Elizabeth Barrett Browning

Not too shallow. Just too deep.

Can you imagine?
-I can hardly speak.

Sweetest dreams.

Aftereffects of a carousel ride.

I had a typical bimbotic conference in bed early in the morning.
-Then we really have to go.

Bill for the entire day spent on food summed up to $100++, for three lonely souls. Alfredo, Carbonara, Crepe Champoign, Strawberry Soda, Peach Soda, Lychee Soda, four cakes, and two shakes.
-As if you have a choice.

When we were at TCC, we ordered two Chocolate Delice, a Marble Cheesecake, and a Devil Chocolate Cake. These Chocolate Delice cakes were amazing. Tetek Hancur saw a round thing inside and she ate it. Susu Tetek also saw a round thing in the other Chocolate Delice and here was what happened.
ST: Hey! A cherry, I like.
(Susu Tetek put the 'cherry' into her mouth and started chewing.)
ST: Wow. How come it tastes so weird?
(Susu Tetek's face turned sour. It tasted so queer, only to realise that it was a rum.)
ST: Rum! Huh, it's a rum? Oh my god, a rum! How come (TH) didn't tell me it was a rum?
TH: I wanted to tell you, but I forgot.
ST: I ate a rum!
ZG: Hahaha. What, there is rum in that cake? Huh, huh?
ST: You already had it. Chocolate cakes are dangerous.
ZG: How come (TH) has no reaction when she ate it and look at you?
TH: Nothing what. It's just a rum.
ST: I'm drunk. I'm drunk. I ate a rum!

So it went on and on.
-I'll sing it one last time for you.
..That I ate a rum!

We left the airport at 2100 and headed for Whitesands to meet Nadz and Ash. We were standing outside Whitesands and they were sitting observing us for five minutes before we actually realised their presence. Sooo embarrassing, haha. ZG was humming to Run and it really got into my head. I guess that explains why. So while ZG went to serve beers and TH went to Geylang, I stayed with them outside Mcdonalds for consultation. So I got home at around one in the morning and I was so exhausted.
(ZG and TH, spare me for the nonsense. Haha.)

Made me wondered.
What have you been going through?
-I can hardly speak.
The emptiness in those beautiful eyes.
-To think I might not see those eyes.
A thousand words they can speak.
You never did.
-To think I might not see those eyes.
-Makes it so hard not to cry.
The past.
Something so hard to fathom.
-And I can barely look at you.
If only your voice surrounds me.
Even if the time has to stop.
I know much more.
-You've been the only thing that's right.
-In all I've done.
Those smiles mean nothing.
-Louder, louder.
Those pain will not be in vain.
Your presence.
-I understand.
-Why you can't raise your voice to say.
Those greens don't just end at your foot.
-Even if you cannot hear my voice.
-I'll be right beside you, dear.

I'm hardly worried about my academics and all. But this time, I really do.

Lyn, the eternity thing I said weeks ago, I felt that it's true. It may be silly, but this time, it feels different. Harti hancur.

Nabz, your song.

Loves.

Daytime stories.

Indeed, life is full of disappointments. However, disappointments are full of life. Several disappointments are crashing in all at once and my attempts to salvage any situation would be futile. One of which would be my results. Honestly, I would be satisfied with my results so long as they are below 23 points. This was derived at the back of my mind in the year 2007. I mean, you should have seen my results back then. Despite doing a point better for my prelims than my Os, I am still somewhat contented with my 16 points.
(I should think so.)
Besides, it's pointless lamenting since everything has already been done. No use crying over spilled milk. All I can do now is weighing my options and pursuing my interest. Unfortunately, my field of interest isn't within the compound of polytechnics' courses. Psychology Studies is partially one of which, but I want something more focused on psychology. If you get what I mean, that is.
That's why my girls asked me to open a polytechnic of my own- Jean Polytechnic.

Rule #0001:
Enrollment of ugly girls and hot guys ONLY!

Rule #0002:
Tattoos and piercings are part of the requirements.


31 December 2008, Wednesday/ 01 January 2009, Thursday:

A transition.

Nab and I were working that night, and instead of spending New Year with other fisherians, we actually spent it together. The clock stroke midnight when we were on the bus, heading for Downtown East. Both of us had a decision to make. I followed my instincts with a baby step.

Downtown was jam-packed with humans. Everyone was in high spirits, jumping and yelling. We bumped into Jorges, Trisha, Wan Yin, Denn, Jonathan, Hup Ming, and John. We were dining in at a restaurant at E! Hub when he called. There was a mixture of feelings boiling inside of me. Nab said I looked like I was having spasm, but yeah, I was so inflamed. The call sort of came at the wrong time, so I told him I would call back later.

Things happened. It wasn't something for the better, but he handled it maturely. You know, unlike some kids, being puerile and all. Well, at least I have gotten something off my chest. I was relieved.

Then we sat down and rang Lyn up. Oh, we saw Kyril and his girlfriend too. How coincidental. We didn't stay out for long, actually. I think we got home at around three in the morning. Wow, I was bushed.


09 January 2009, Friday:

Lyn and I met up early that day to have our lunch at Fish & Co. express before heading back to school to get my cheque. It was a Friday and CCA Open House was on the following day, so naturally, there would be training for the kids. We went to the dance studio, we went to see several teachers which included Miss Karin Wong, Mrs Koh, Mr Choo, Mrs See, and Ms Shelia. We bumped into Ms Wong and Mrs Wong as well. Very soon, we left for work. Lyn was running late as her shift starts an hour before me, so we took a cab down. I was in a horrible mood since..

I was deployed as the greeter as I was replacing Zul. Goodness gracious, that was my first time officially being deployed as a greeter! I was tensed especially when it was a Friday evening. We weren't expecting to open station D, but well, guests kept coming in. I don't know how well I fared, but that day was, cool. Lyn and I were playing with Farhan's astronaut-ish helmet. It was nice to wear. I bet we looked funny.


10 January 2009, Saturday:

It was CCA Open House, but I missed it. Initially, I wanted to go badly and kept grousing that our Basic Food Safety workshop clashes with it. But when we decided to skip the workshop, I was too lazy to go for the Open House. I slept through the morning and met up with Nab, Sally and Anne in the afternoon. We had our lunch at FCX and took a cab down to Temasek Poly for their Open House. We toured around the campus and we saw Shikin first. Subsequent people we bumped into were Nicholas and gang, Nadz and Khai, Mel and friends, Thob and Haeqal, and et cetera. It was like a Sophix gathering for us, except that Iqbal was the substitution for Lyn that day. Haha.


11 January 2009, Sunday:

Lyn, Anne, Nab, Hanah, Phebs and I attended Beverage workshop today at Glass House. Coincidentally, Mel and I were in the same group again, along with Lyn. It was like a Loyang Primary School reunion as Nab is one of us too. I have learnt more this time as it was out of context, so yeah, overall, it was a fruitful trip.

While Hanah went off with her boyfriend and Phebs headed home, the four of us went to Secret Recipe at PS for our meal. I was starving! So happened that Cloud, Yono and Carmen came in after us, and they joined us as well.
Fisherians dining at Secret Recipe.


12 January 2009, Monday:

The release of O Level results.

Sophix went in together, and it was like whoa. I wasn't very uptight, as usual, until when Arian was collecting her results. Next was Charissa, followed by Jean.
I got all Bs and a D for my Combined Humanities. At least my Humanities improved by two grades. So overall, I got only 16 points. Nadz was the first to ask about my results, Ash and Mon and people were probing about it too. My dad and mum were okay about my results as they have never expected much from me. I am a disgrace to Janet, though.

My day didn't just end there. Sally, Anne, Lyn, Nab and I went to Downtown East to have our lunch. We ate at Burger King, and after which, Sally and Anne left while the rest of us went to Gelare to chill. We ordered Mini Feast and dug in to different flavours of ice cream!
Yum yum.
As usual, we had lots of laughter(:
Then we saw a couple which melted our hearts. Judging from their brief yet sweet smooch upon meeting each other, we concluded that they aren't local. It was such a sweet sight.


You make my heart tingle.
Misses.

Baa baa black sheep.

I have pretty friends(:

Discovery.

Tagged by Lynn.

1: Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
My nose.

2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
I felt bored as I needn't work today.

3: Who was the last person you took a photo with?
Sophix sweethearts(:

4: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
Yes, to a certain extent?

5: Would you ever donate blood?
I doubt so. Haha.

6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex (boy because I am a girl)?
Certainly. A couple in the past, and currently, it would be Timothy and Shayne.

7: Do you want someone dead?
Like myself, for instance. Haha.

8: What does your last text message say?
"Ten hours earlier? Haha! Probably at three, or earlier if you don't mind. Lol."

9: What are you thinking of right now?
I'm wondering if Nabilah would meet me on time tomorrow. (I would highly doubt so, though.)

10: Do you wish someone was with you right now?
Absolutely.

11: What time did you go to sleep last night?
0100 hours, thereabout.

12: Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
I have no idea at all.

13: Is someone on your mind right now?
Definitely.

14: Who was the last person to text you?
Nabilah and Shayne.

10 PEOPLE TAGGED TO DO THIS QUIZ
(Pretty pointless because I believe these people have been tagged.)
#1: Annaay/ Banana Naughty
#2: Cheraay
#3: Lahlaay
#4: Lynnaay
#5: Sallaay
#6: Weenaay
#7: Amanda/ Banana Bratty
#8: Siska/ Banana Nutty
#9: Syafiqah/ Banana Witty
#10: Rachel

15: Who is 2 having a relationship with?
(Cheraay) She is having a relationship with Sophix(:

16: Is 3 a male or a female?
(Lahlaay) Certainly a female.

17: If 7 and 10 get together, will that be a good thing?
(Bratty and Rachel) Why not? Haha.

18: What is 1 studying about?
(Annaay) I hope she is studying her Product Description.

19: When was the last time you had a chat with them?
Generally, this week.

20: Is 4 single?
(Lynnaay) She's attached to Sophix too(:

21: Say something about 2.
(Cheraay) She is our beloved Sophixer.

22: What do you think about 3 and 6 being together?
(Lahlaay and Weenaay) They are already together!

23: Describe 9.
(Witty) As her nickname suggests, she is very witty.

24: What will you do if 6 and 7 fight?
I will join in! Hahaha.

Help! (I am not jaded)

You see me here, finally!

I shall begin by doing this:
(Spotted my name at Sally's and Bratty's and Lynn's and Witty's)

Let's not start with the rigid rules and regulations.

10 weird things/ habits/ little known facts about Jean.
1. I have a boring life, and you'll see why.
2. I never expected myself to work in F&B, but I am glad that I am working at Fish&Co. now, really(:
3. I have a tiny tattoo, but I am proud of it. I won't stop at one because I am desiring for more. I have got some lovely ideas churning in my head already. I don't have a history for my tattoo, but I vividly recall that I got it on 5 July 2008.
4. I have a navel piercing as well and I had it since 30 August this year. My little tattoo is just above it.
5. I have the habit of looking at myself in the mirror before I go to bed.
6. Nabilah said that I fidget a lot when I am sitting down.
7. I have a little collection of Beauty and the Beast's stuff because I adore Belle to bits. (Puerile, I know.)
8. I once flunk my Chinese oral examination.
9. I aspire to be a psychologist/ psychoanalyst/ psychiatrist since I was eight. Escapologist sounds cool too, but it doesn't seem like a good profession to me. I want to be a mixologist too!
10. I love money! Haha.

There you go.

Anyway, I am working at Tampines Mall Fish & Co. currently. Never imagined myself to work there, honestly. I love my job so far. I love being a runner. I love my colleagues. Nabilah, Lynn, Anne and I are lucky to have an outstanding trainer, Nadz. I have so much more to tell, but well, not everything has to be said.

Goodnight to you(:
Goodnight, babe.

Can't wait.
(Updated.)
(Updated, again)

Growing gulf.

15 November 2008, Saturday:

Bratty and I went out to shop!


16 November 2008, Sunday:

It was a wonderful morning, with a wonderful weather, a wonderful sun and wonderful clouds. I woke up from my wonderful sleep and took a wonderful bath.

I set off from home to meet Amanda first before heading to Anne's house together. Every step we took by foot were complaints on how heavy our bags were. I have no idea why my bag so really bulky. I mean, I tried to remove many many many redundant stuff lest my bag is laden with unnecessary items, but no, it was still a huge obese bag.

With time on our hand, we watched Prom Night whilst waiting for everything to fall in place. Anne's dad drove us to National Service Resort Country Club, SAFRA, which was where our chalet was, to check in for us. It is at Tanah Merah and Anne and I were surprised at the change. The chalets look so much better. This time, the colours of the chalet were more vibrant and the interiors were more modern. It looked better than my last visit.

I loved the part when our class played some interactive games, apart from Mahjong. At the end of the chalet, I was the only left who doesn't know how to play Mahjong. Haha. So, 4/6 played the games before settling down for Disturbia. Anne's favourite since Shia was in it. I sat on the floor with Shayne and he kept on snatching my pillow! Everyone sprawled all over the couch and floor before the television set. It was fun.

Then I went to bed with Syafiqah and Siska joined us afterwards. I can lose everything but my beauty sleep. Oh oh, that place is infested with lizards and you know, lizards scare the sonofab*tch out of me!
I can still see lizards even if I am purblind. Destitute of vision does not affect my sight for those $%@#& lizards.


17 November 2008, Monday:

Next fine morning, I woke up really early and I can't remember why. We watched Final Destination 3 in the morning which was pretty odd to me, but who cares, I loved that flick. Then I had gastric which thankfully didn't kill me. But when the Horny Bananas went to the bowling alley for our lunch, my gastric happily evolved to heartburn after I ate. That was worse. So whilst Amanda accompanied me back to our chalet, Anne, Siska and Syafiqah stayed on to play. I immediately curled myself up in the couch, in hopes of soothing the pain. It was Shayne and the rest's turn to go out, but out of Syafiqah's so-called community. Amanda asked Wei Ting to get a magazine for her. I jumped out of the couch and pestered Timothy to go with me, since I wanted to get some magazines too. So we walked and talked, talked and walked. The pain was worse when I got out, but at least it killed my boredom, somehow. Timothy was really sweet to have accompanied me out because I know he didn't have the intention of leaving the chalet. Mark was with us too as we bumped into him on our way to Bedok.

When we got back to the chalet, I plopped myself onto the couch and Shayne came.
Jean: I'm bored.
Shayne: I know what you need.
(Reaches out for the guitar.)
Jean: Can we go upstairs instead?
Shayne: Okay.
(Enters room.)
(Anne, Amanda, Timothy and Mark are in the room.)
Anne: What are you two doing here? (Giggles)
Jean: Nothing much.
Then Timothy and Shayne took turns at harassing the guitar.
Very soon, Timothy left and all of us crashed whilst Mark was playing with some gadget. Can't recall what was it. We had such a good sleep and we didn't want to get down for the barbecue.

Mrs Koh and Mrs Wong were there first. Next came Ms Chua and Mrs Henry. Such a gathering(:

I realised that Alfred loves prawns too! Both of us like Smarties ice cream (which no one else seemed to have tried it before) and love prawns.
Alfred: Those people who don't like prawns or are allergic to prawns have sad lives.
Haha.

I helped Amanda grill some satays and the humongous prawns when everyone else were busy and I got pretty bored. My eyes had to steer clear from the fumes but it wasn't really that warm. I started naming the satays and prawns. Most of them carried 4/6's names, and some were just random ones. I even chatted with them as they seemed bored too. They took forever to be fully grilled. Then Alfred came along. Amanda and I were trying to tear the prawns' head apart from their hot bodies with a pair of tongs each, whilst Alfred had to fling the heads into the bin from a distance. The flinging part was fun! I tried.

Pop goes the weasel.

Everyone bathed before me because I take ages to bathe. When I was out, many of them crashed on the couch, so I sat on the kitchen top, plugged in to some music, and relaxed.

(Okay, Siska ate many bananas. Yes, that's the spirit of a Horny Banana! I love bananas too.)

Anne came and Shayne sat back against me and he was eating satays, which smelled. Shayne asked me if I wanted to take a stroll outside, I agreed and Anne and Siska tagged along. We found a nice place to sit down and chat so we just sprawled ourselves on the couch. It was so quiet and empty, and surprisingly, not creepy. The only thing that freaked me out were the lizards!
So many many many.

From midnight, we prattled on till about four plus five. We threw our hearts out and discovered many other things about each other. But Anne already knew everything about me. Haha. Anyway, I said one week (seven days!), Anne. Chalet was merely three days. I will fill you in with what happened between us when you are back in Singapore!
Miss you(:

When we got back to the chalet, we thought we would be locked out as everyone crashed like they have never slept before. At least Wang Zhen was up and she opened the door for us. Shayne and I threw ourselves onto the bed whilst Anne, Siska and Syafiqah slept downstairs. Amanda slept with both of us too. The other room was occupied by Desmond, Xuan Jie and Timothy. Xuan Jie can really snore, lol.


18 November 2008, Tuesday:

After checking out on the last day, some of us went to eat at Whitesands. That's basically about it. I hate to leave. It's like a small-big family leaving together in a small chalet.
How cosy.
First night, I slept with Siska and Syafiqah. Then Amanda, Jun Ming and Wai Yin took over. Shayne, Vanessa, Alfred and Wei Ting slept together in the really wee hours (near dawn) of the morning.
Second night, Amanda slept with Syafiqah. Then Shayne, Amanda and I took over. Desmond, Xuan Jie and Timothy slept together as well. Timothy felt violated, though. Haha.
How cosy.

Disconnection.

Hopefully my memory still serves me correctly. It is so difficult for me to trace the details of past events.


14 November 2008, Friday:

Graduation Night.

Aww, my dearest cheese(Shazreen) came to pick me up that day. It was definitely a phenomenal evening for all of us. Well, except of one person who tried to fit in and all, but you know, she doesn't belong here. Ugh, who cares. I am so not going to see her anymore. Woohoooo.

After that evening, Lynn, Nabilah, Anne, Salihah and I traipsed to Downtown East and we settled at Burger King for a drink. Alfred looked so much better with a vest on, really! Everyone looked great that evening.

Adrie, Anne, Nabilah, Ridzuan, Salihah, Zuhaili and I perambulated to the beach at around midnight and Afiq and Michael joined us soon after. It was, cool.

Anonymous lad (barked): What are the smart girls doing here at night? Hahaha.
Jean (yelled): Then what are those stupid boys doing here at night?
Guuuuuyyyyyssssssssss.

Let the pictures do the talking.

My darling Banana Nutty(:
Siska dearest never fails to crack us up.

Love these ladies dearly.
Sallaay, Cheraay, Weenaay, Lynnaay, Lahlaay, Annaay and Jeanaay.
These girls are the best!
Sophix.


Aww, Timothy sweetie. Love him so much.


The gossipee-ers. Haha.






Banana Bratty(:
With you around, gossipping never ends!
Let's continue to scout around for hot guys, haha.










Suave(not) Gigolo.
Shayne: I know what you need.
(Reaches out for the guitar.)


If you are wondering who is the ghoul-ish ghoul behind us, he is actually Xuan Jie.


Michaelie babe!






He has all my secrets kept within him.




My babe(:
Sugar, I love you so much!




Horny Bananas!
Banana Bratty(Amanda), Banana Witty(Syafiqah), Banana Naughty(Anne), Banana Nutty(Siska), Banana Hottie(Jean).
My wonderful ladies(:


My lovely fellow DPs; FM(JNS).
We go waaayyy back(:
Love you, gorgeous.
Love you, babe.
















Prom Queen, my sweetest Shazreen.
Sophix is so proud of you, babe.
Prom King, Jordan.


Some of the few pictures I have. That's all for Graduation Night!